Whew! I can’t tell you have refreshing it feels to be typing out a blog post right now. I feel like it’s 2019 again, and I’m sitting in my tiny apartment, hunched over my laptop staring blindly into the blue light without a care in the world. Except, a lot has changed since then. My home has gotten a little bigger, but my world has gotten a lot smaller and I have many, many cares to fill it up each day. My hair is a mess, all of my clothes are dirty, and as I sit here now I’m not sure how long it’s been since I’ve had a sip of water. Sure, this may seem like a woman in need of some serious therapy… and, heck, maybe that’s exactly what I need. But the truth is I wouldn’t have it any other way. This is it. This is the life I’ve always wanted. I’m so exhausted I could scream and I’m the luckiest woman in the world.
Speaking of lucky, welcome to my (reluctantly) new blog! I had absolutely no intention of rebranding and recreating my entire website from scratch. On the first day I had a bit of energy and (believe it or not) free time, I was actually excited to get Oh That Caitlin back up and running again. But sadly, while I was off being very pregnant with twins, I was also ignoring my emails, many of which were about my domain name and hosting on ohthatcaitlin.com, which was set to expire last October. So when I logged in again thinking I could simply start back where I left off, I was very wrong. Turns out, someone in Hong Kong now owns ohthatcaitlin.com, and they don’t plan on giving it back without a hefty fee.
So with that, Two Little Shadows was born. I picked the name from a poem by an anonymous author that I read way before I had the twins. At the time, it made me feel like I couldn’t wait to be a mom, and even more, a mom of two. Little did I know that God was planning on making me that a lot quicker than I ever imagined.
So I’ll get right too it and wrap up this first post with that poem – Two Little Shadows – and a promise to provide as much insight into my life as a new twin mom as I can… in-between bottles, naps, and crying spells.
Two Little Shadows
I saw a young mother
With eyes full of laughter
And two little shadows
Came following after.
Wherever she moved,
They were always right there
Holding onto her skirts,
Hanging onto her chair.
Before her, behind her—
An adhesive pair.
“Don’t you ever get weary
As, day after day,
your two little tagalongs
Get in your way?”
She smiled as she shook
Her pretty young head,
And I’ll always remember
The words that she said.
“It’s good to have shadows
That run when you run,
That laugh when you’re happy
And hum when you hum—
For you only have shadows
When your life’s filled with sun.”
-Anonymous
